On the other hand, B doesn't even want to celebrate his birthday though I organize something for him each year. He thinks it's pointless to make a big deal about your birthday and I tend to agree...but, It's not like I'm that girl that goes around telling people over and over that it's my birthday or expects a bunch of presents. I just like to spend the whole month reflecting and scheduling trips for myself. Why not? It's a good excuse for me to travel and spend money on things I otherwise would have told myself to pass up on. I love the idea of reflecting on my previous year and seeing what I've accomplished... or haven't accomplished yet.
But the older I get the more I feel I should be doing. I feel like, "Why haven't I traveled more?" "Why haven't I become a CEO of a company or started my own business yet?" "Why am I not at my birthweight?" "Why can't I spend my entire paycheck on Amazon?" "Why do people keep asking me when I'm having kids?" "Why haven't I recorded a rock album yet (even though I'm not a musician)?" I know some of these are outright ridiculous, but I still think about them. I know I've accomplished a lot of things so far, but these dreams are so appealing. As we get older why do we tell everyone "we are turning 29 again?" Is that really helping anyone? Do you all think about these things on your birthday? Anyways Happy Birthday to me! And seriously, why haven't I traveled more? ;)